I forgot what I was going to write.

Writing here in the blog at 1 in the morning, for me, seems a little out of place. I should be asleep. I have no stresses and nothing to worry about at the moment. I wish I could just sit down and study. Honestly it's what I think about constantly. Why can't I do it? Why why why? I want to be how I was for all of my life. It's like something was taken away from me at some point. I want it back. I need to fight for it to get it back. People really do look up to me, the people I left behind. I don't want to disappoint them. I don't want to continue to disappoint myself.

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