Before my meeting today with Dr. Runowicz (Dr. R for short), I was feeling a little tense. I was part sad part worried about what would come out of her mouth during the meeting. I had arrived a couple of minutes earlier so I had some time to evaluate my behavior.
It was at that point that I began reading a book that had profiles of true leaders in Miami for 2013. They had many words of wisdom to give which made me feel at ease.They all seemed to have level heads resting upon their shoulders... maybe that's why I started feeling this way. I became very mellow and proper; I corrected my posture, I spoke with a low/comforting tone that was in no way rushed; I smiled and nodded without exaggeration. If I were talking to me at that point, I would have felt ease. I think the main reasoning behind this whole attitude was that it was a state of being that didn't require much energy to maintain. I felt (and still feel) as though that whatever needed to be done I could do it as I took my time. Why rush anything? If you take the time to do it right and on time, was there really a rush to do anything? Do things with purpose, and do them well. When the time comes to be rushed or expend a lot of physical or mental energy, you will have the energy to use it on since you are living in an energy efficient state.
Today when I was leaving school after my meeting with Dr. R, I was sitting in my car getting things ready to go when the car beside me had their driver come up and get ready to leave as well. Normally, I would try to hurry up what I was doing and try to leave before them. But... why? What was the point? It didn't matter if I left a couple of seconds earlier than she did; what I would have done was sacrifice some peace of mind and time I could be using to make myself happy and comfortable in my car just to show that I could leave earlier. It's silly. Now, of course, there are occasions where you would want to act quickly, but for those times, use the energy you didn't spend on daily doings and suddenly those time where you rushed won't seem so bad - just make sure to ensure that they do not happen too often.
Three things that I wanted to remember to write here:
- Starting out going back to workouts, workout at least once a day - whether it be cardio or lifting (try to alternate)
- Everyday is its own day. The only thing weeks, months, and years are good for are for record keeping and deadlines. Do not treat the weekend any different than a weekday; use them all well and take each as they come to take the full advantage of them.
- Be calm and cool. When the time comes to be swift, you will be ready.
My meeting with Dr. R was fairly uneventful. She seemed to be glad that I am on my return back and she sounds fairly confident that I can do well. For this I'm happy - I don't want to disappoint anyone anymore.
I wish writing in this blog didn't feel like such a chore. It doesn't take more than 20 minutes to really write down everything I'd like. Perhaps over time it won't feel so bad and with my new demeanor it won't take such a toll on what remains of my energy.
V
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